Friday, March 19, 2010

frustration

From where does passion come? Why does it feel like I find it and then I can't put the time or energy into something to make it happen? Do all people feel like their life lacks passion? I don't understand why I can't seem to figure out what makes me happy. Why is it so hard for me to figure out what I should do with my life? I think I feel a calling to be a doctor, but my inability to focus on school rips that feeling away. I don't ever want to study. I don't ever want to focus and I have NO motivation. In high school, I had motivation. I wanted to be the best me I could be. Now I have NO IDEA what or who I want to be. I won't make myself study or be devoted to school. I don't get it! I'm bored and I can't find anything I enjoy. I try to reach for the Lord but it just gets harder and harder. I don't understand! My frustration is so difficult to fight through. I want clear answers and direction for my life. I've always been told that when you commit to the Lord, your life will get more difficult at first. I guess that is true, but it feels difficult now. I want to push out the devil and all evil. The evil one taunts me, frustrates me, and dangles my dreams over my head. I want to be passionate about something. I want to be happy. I want to enjoy life, all parts of life.
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  1. Dream CatcherMarch 21, 2010 at 2:38 PM

    be passionate about the Lord. and patience is key. God knows exactly what your passion is and he will allow your heart to feel that burning desire when HE feels you are ready.

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  2. Cracked but not BrokenMarch 29, 2010 at 4:29 PM

    I agree with Dream Catcher, if you are passionate about the Lord then what else do you need to be passionate about? God knows you and your heart and has a plan for you. All you have to do is obey what he asks of you. You may be like me in that you want to see results fast and need answers now, but patience is key. Remember that you are only in this world for a short time and while you are here you are to do the Lords work, and if you do you will reach complete and total happiness. Remember though God sent Jesus here to suffer, and to live like us, so as humans we are going to suffer and life will not be easy, but push through the hard times and blessings will fall upon you.

    Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know
    that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope (Romans 5:3-4 )

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  3. Change is Revolutionary.March 29, 2010 at 8:14 PM

    Wow! I can't belive you wrote that Cracked but Not Broken. It's the exact same thing my friend and I talked about after I wrote that!!

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